So that thing, that thing we don't talk about… it's eating disorders. I've mentioned it in previous blogs but I don't often talk about how much I struggle with it. It's one of those things that people assume, because I don't mention it, because they see me eating, it must be gone. They think, because… Continue reading That thing we don’t talk about… but should
You never know what someone is going through. People you come into contact with every day, strangers, work colleagues, friends, family… everyone has a story.That person serving you in the supermarket, they didn't talk and were seemingly rude - they were up all night with their toddler who just. Won't. Sleep. The person that cut… Continue reading Don’t be an Asshole
What have you got to be sad about? I have been asked that many times. For all the work I've done to be open and honest about mental illness, I have still been asked this question recently. This question and the attitude that comes with it, is what makes me feel like I have to… Continue reading What have you got to be sad about?
Happy Blog Birthday!! So today is 2 years since I started my blog. Oh how much has changed in those two years. I've taken leaps forward in recovery. I've also slipped down the rabbit hole of depression, discovered an eating disorder, found both healthy and very unhealthy ways of coping, and worried that I would… Continue reading Happy 2nd Birthday
I keep seeing a quote pop up (which of course I can't find when I want to reference it) something about the tools you used to survive may not be the same ones to heal. I've definitely got the wording wrong but the message is there. The tools I used to survive were binging, be… Continue reading It’s ok to lose your spark
Mental illness… it’s a funny one… not funny like ‘haha’. Funny like, ‘tricksy little bitch that sets out to ruin your day and you have to fight against it on the daily just to function like a semi-normal human being and sometimes you just want to cry because fuck you mental illness’ (I purposely didn’t… Continue reading Bittersweet Symphony
I am writing this on very little sleep so if some of it doesn't make sense I apologise!! I just need to say though… I bloody did it!!! I have pushed through my fears and done many things on my recovery road. This though, this was the biggest so far. I went to New York… Continue reading New York New York!
I met up with friends yesterday and I was visibly sad. My one friend asked “why didn't you tell me earlier when I asked how you were?” my answer was that I thought I was ok, but it changed. She told me that I should have told her it changed. How many people do that… Continue reading How are you?
Hello lovelies! Sunday is my day of resetting, recharging, cleaning, sometimes gyming and today a little bit of blogging. This morning I sat and thought about everything that has been going on with me lately. There have been setbacks, heartbreak, tears, anxiety meltdowns, questioning my choices, feeling like I can't go on… There have also… Continue reading Sunday Thoughts
Recovery is a road that terrifies me sometimes. It's also a road that excites me. Along this road I never know what I'm going to come up against. I have hit bumps I didn't know I'd hit. I have unearthed some buried issues. I have acknowledged some long standing issues that I had ignored. I… Continue reading The Road to Recovery