The Road to Recovery

Recovery is a road that terrifies me sometimes. It’s also a road that excites me. Along this road I never know what I’m going to come up against. I have hit bumps I didn’t know I’d hit. I have unearthed some buried issues. I have acknowledged some long standing issues that I had ignored. I […]

Reflection

Today has been such a big deal for me. I didn’t even realise how big of a deal until I took a little moment to reflect. I’ll start with a little back story for understanding. I applied for a job and when I read the advert some weeks ago, I saw right at the bottom: […]

Coping Tools

Hey there! I felt the need to write a post about some of my coping tools, it may not work for everyone but you never know, it could help someone! So if you’ve read all my blogs, or know me personally, you’ll know that I didn’t always talk about my problems. Before I had my […]

Maybe swearing will help

Do you ever get those days that you say fuck off more than anything else? I am one of those people that swears like a sailor so I say it a lot anyway… but then some days I find myself just saying ‘oh fuck ooooff’ more than usual! Today has been one of those days. […]

Down the rabbit hole

Hello to all my lovely readers! It’s been ages since I wrote a blog, I have had a few people ask me when the next blog will be posted, my response has been “when I can find the words”. As some of you have seen from Instagram or if I’ve told you in person, I […]

Autumn

I am so excited to be heading into autumn. The cosy clothes, the beautiful colours, Halloween! I believe I got this love of autumn from many places. Firstly because it is my sister’s favourite time of year, you grow up around the excitement that she displays at anything autumnal, you would love it too. The […]

Apologies and what if’s

Do you ever find yourself apologising all the time? I did, for everything. All. The. Time. I think it comes from feeling like such a burden. It is also my inner bitch that tells me I should apologise for being me, because me isn’t good enough. This road to recovery is a bumpy one. I […]

Speak up!

So recently, I’ve felt haunted by things that have happened to me in the past. I’ve been so haunted I’ve not slept properly, I can’t focus properly, I am up and down like a yo-yo and feel like I’m balancing on the edge of a cliff. There are many things going on and these memories […]

Big boys don’t cry…?

Tonight I’ve read about the lead singer of Linkin Park committing suicide. It made me so sad to think that there are still so many people who lose their battle with mental illness. It troubled me so I went on http://www.mentalhealth.org to look at some statistics… In England, women are more likely than men to […]

Invisible Illnesses

Welcome to my house… I live with my momma, I moved back home so I could save to buy a house. Shortly after I moved in, she got ill and I became her carer. I will eventually buy my house and move back out, before that happens though, we will make sure she can cope […]